My Everyday Crisis (perhaps)

Hmmmmn 'quarter life crisis?'

What about 'mid life crisis?' 

Maybe 'everyday life crisis' 

Or at some point, you just feel 'lost.'

Well, I do, I did, and I think I will always be a person who seemed lost(?), who seemed to be always in the so called 'quarter life crisis' issue.  

In every partial decision/s that ended not so well, I pacify myself that this is part of the so called 'quarter life crisis.' 

I kept using the same lame excuse, until finally, I told myself that I need to accept the fact that I'm just too lazy to do better 😅

Like I wanted something bigger, but I easily hold back since I'm fine with things being 'simple.'

Yes, I shouldn't be satisfied with just doing 'simple.'

But I am fine to just give what is due, instead of giving my best.

And the cycle continues.

Hmmn, so what? Every person has their own timeline and despite a lot of setbacks along the way, I go with the flow with an open mind and heart. 

Then my usual scenario...

Have you ever been in a situation where you opted to start all over again? 

I DO. I ALWAYS DO. 

And I keep on asking why I put myself again into something that I am not sure of when I can actually 'upgrade.'

It's like whenever there is an option to upgrade vs a chance to start a new path, I somehow choose the latter, maybe because I am a person who likes challenges (?).

Few friends would/will ask why shift into a different path again? 

I couldn't find the right words but all I know is that I have to, like I need to find more of my purpose (cliché). 

Is this part of a post-quarter life crisis phase? I don't think so. Maybe more like an everyday life crisis scenario 😅

Am I the type of person who do not care about my future? 

Certainly not. 

There were days when I felt lonely, sad, disappointed, depressed, and whatever 🤷‍♀️ (I try not to dwell on these now)

At some point, I still use the same excuses. 

But hey, one thing will never change. 

For everything was/is just a redirection (and will always be that way). 

Who knows, maybe just around the corner, I will find something that makes living more meaningful.

Don't you think so? 

 

♡,

Mari